Currently Playing .: Utada Hikaru - FINAL DISTANCE :.
Given up on her, its been back and forth with her and its draining my life away, the feeling of yearning for another person on the other side of the world is so dumb. At the same time i feel like there's nothing and nobody here for me, it sucks to know that there's such a girl who i can talk to on a daily basis and can't be with her.
We will remain good friends but nothing else.. and it sucks. At the very least we are still talking everyday and she is actually planning to send me something for my birthday..
Ever since i came back from hk, things with kiku aren't going anywhere, in fact we are almost back to where we were few years back; i don't feel like calling her up and do anything cuz of her new job, and with her japan trip coming up she needs to save up some money so i don't want her to spend more money for now.. this distance is far too familiar. I feel like i'm always going to be low on her priority list so why bother? It's because i like her so much i have these ridiculously high respects and views about her, while shes just being a frd to me, i really shouldn't be thinking like this.. i can't help it sometimes. i just hope this distance will help die down some of the feelings i have for her..
I'm going to taking some online courses soon at UBC for my housing management certificate. I still can't believe this year is almost over soon.. so much has happened but at the same time it felt so short.
Lets see;
1) broke up a 3 yr relationship
2) forced myself to the gym, still going at least 1-2 times a week
3) shrunk back to the shape, probably the best shape in my life right now
4) started eating healthier, and watching what i ate
5) Kelv and Cat came into my life, i feel so blessed to have them in my life
6) got back to smoking for a few months.. but stopped cuz i promised myself i wouldn't do it for my health and friends around me are all quitting
7) Saw Cherie in Singapore, went back to hk and saw a lot of wonderful friends(Kenneth, Carlson, lomo cheung, ah kit etc)
8) met a really incredible girl on tinder of all places, made a really close friend..
9) went on a few dates, but pretty much nothing i want to pursue
10) got a raise and got my building under control(somewhat), at least making the boss happy
Maybe next year things will even be better for me.
