:: Monkey Majik - yakusoku ::
Can't believe 2008 is already ending.. this year passed by so quickly for me, i must say i enjoyed this year quite a lot. I'm going to do a review of the things that happened this year.
First off, I had a great time with miss k in japan to start off the year.. and meeting some of my old friends like Cherie really made this trip unforgetable. Tho as shopping wise, I must admit I was a little disappointed i didnt get as much stuff as i hoped, such as going to Justin Davis and coming back empty handed, but to my surprise, the new JD store opened in Hong Kong really brought me a lot of joy.
I really liked the people that worked there; Stephen's stupid bullshiting jokes, Ling's carefree attitude & lovely smile, and Pat's kind compliment & mother-like guidance.. they've really became good friends of mine. Of course meeting Justin Davis himself was the one of most unexpected thing that could happen to me.. the guy was just too cool and yet extremely down-to-earth.
As months go by, I've had my moments at work.. being able to transfer to different teams, I was fortunate enough to meet some good people. They've certainly made work more bearable and less stressful.. of course I've also had some bad moments when it's ultra stressful.. but everyone in the team went thru the same shit, at the end of the day, it's all good.
Another good moments I've had this year is my buddy Darek coming to visit. I was glad i got to show him around a city he's never been, and being fascinated by many things. Of course seeing my buddy again after being away for so long was great, we've had many good moments. I was happy he came to visit me.
I'm also glad i got to know some good friends at work; A lot of us got together one time and went on a two-day trip to China. Even tho the trip schedule was shitty as hell(who would want to go to a Aloe farm and listen to them sell their latest and greatest product?) the Hotspring resort was the best highlight. Some of the friends moved on to another jobs, so it was good catching up with them and hang out just like old times.. while soaking in hotspring and drinking hahah.
This year I got to see some of my friends getting married, hence going to their wedding for the first time.. I've been to tons of family weddings, but never a friend one. It totally had a different feeling to it, you can really feel the love they have for each other.. the hardship they go thru to get to this stage, and express their vows to each other in a very touching way. I feel really glad I was there for their special day.
Going back to Vancouver after two years was nostraglic. I got to see most of my old friends again; going out like old times, driving my honda again(well darek did most of the drivings, but still good), and eating delicious food. I was really content to see Micky graduating in SFU, celebrating miss k's and megan's birthday.
One of the things that scared me a lot this year is my health, and the other thing is my fiancial situation. I was straight up FLAT broke when i got back from vancouver(fiancial breakdown is to blame) and at the same time, I discovered my blood pressure was higher than normal.. so I've been starting to diet lately, cutting off all the sugary drinks to water, and eating more fruits and vegetables to balance it all out. I've lost 7 pounds since i last weighed myself, so it's going alright so far. As for my fiancial situation, i'm slowly getting my account back to speed.. just requires a lot of OTs.
Hm, i guess that pretty much covers it. 2008 came and gone, i think 2009 would be a challenaging year for me.. my career and moving back to vancouver would definitely change a lot of things along the way, but i will stay optimistic.
2008年12月24日 星期三
sick of it all
:: Deathgaze - Fuck me ::
How long am i going to stop living a lie and be true to myself?
I only want to be accepted..
How long am i going to stop living a lie and be true to myself?
I only want to be accepted..
2008年12月13日 星期六
shopping season
:: Hinouchi Emi - Natsukoi feat. Ryohei ::
Havent been much productive lately, been OTing like mad everyday at work.. mainly is to make more money before christmas rolls around~ hopefully i can get more money as i can, will splurge some more once i get paid!
The pic above is just some of the things i bought recently, just couldnt help myself haha.
Havent been much productive lately, been OTing like mad everyday at work.. mainly is to make more money before christmas rolls around~ hopefully i can get more money as i can, will splurge some more once i get paid!
The pic above is just some of the things i bought recently, just couldnt help myself haha.
2008年11月30日 星期日
Longest Night
:: GLAY - BE WITH YOU ::
Days are getting bit chilly these days, It's nice and cozy sitting by the heater, wrapping myself in a blanket and watch random movies on TV.
I managed to catch "The longest Night In Shanghai" with japanese/chinese actors; It's a love story about two people who randomly met each other when Wei Zhao's taxi cab bumped into Masahiro Motoki by accident, and the both of them had love problems from the past.. the plot really captivated me, it was almost something i can relate to. Wei Zhao's loved one was getting married, and she was forced to tell him how she felt before everything was too late..
kind of reminded me of my relationship with miss k..
Well, as the movies go on.. the two faced a lot of language barriers, but no matter how much they don't understand each other, they just couldn't leave each other alone, lingering feelings all around.. they connected no matter how different they were.
Also the music in it were really good.. the theme song "Breathe" by Frally, it was a really nice touch for the atmosphere. This movie definitely touched me in some ways.
Days are getting bit chilly these days, It's nice and cozy sitting by the heater, wrapping myself in a blanket and watch random movies on TV.
I managed to catch "The longest Night In Shanghai" with japanese/chinese actors; It's a love story about two people who randomly met each other when Wei Zhao's taxi cab bumped into Masahiro Motoki by accident, and the both of them had love problems from the past.. the plot really captivated me, it was almost something i can relate to. Wei Zhao's loved one was getting married, and she was forced to tell him how she felt before everything was too late..
kind of reminded me of my relationship with miss k..
Well, as the movies go on.. the two faced a lot of language barriers, but no matter how much they don't understand each other, they just couldn't leave each other alone, lingering feelings all around.. they connected no matter how different they were.
Also the music in it were really good.. the theme song "Breathe" by Frally, it was a really nice touch for the atmosphere. This movie definitely touched me in some ways.
2008年11月28日 星期五
payday
:: GLAY - Will Be Kings ::
Last month was not fun at all, my account suffering a brutal beating by me.. and i didnt even buy anything other than daily appliances! It was hella scary, seeing my account went down to 2 digit numbers were enough to put me into panic mode.. and i was only well into the first week of the month :S
All i did was spend the remaining money on fruit and cheap canned foods.. and i had to put the rest on credit card, so i could pay that off when i get my paycheck at the end of the month. Some of my coworkers knew what i was going thru.. and were willing to help out by sharing some portion of their lunch with me. Some even offered me for dinner at their houses, but i had to refuse that offer.. i didn't want to be a burden to them and it didnt feel right.
Afterall, it was all my doing that got me into this mess.
Basically, it was because I had to make plans for next year; when i was in vancouver for those 2 weeks.. I made a bank account and deposited 3/4 of my savings in there for safe keep later for school purposes.
What I didn't know was, the money had all been exchanged into canadian dollars, and the economy went to shits right after i came back. CAD went from 7.6 to 6.3.. it was shocking.
If i take out that money right now, I would be losing a huge chunk of money cause of the exchange rate, so fuck that. I went home and was forced to use my remaining savings in the meantime.. my last paycheck went all straight into paying my credit card bills, paying off airfares and the routine bills were one hell of a bitch =/ Also, I knew i had to make more money for the coming month, so i went ahead and Overtimed as much as possible at work.. that helped me made a few extra bucks and prevented me from going out.
Perseverance and many hungry nights later, payday finally arrived. After I made my ATM trip at work, I totally felt like a new man again, having money again in my wallet definitely felt good.
However, I dont know how much money i can save within this upcoming month.. December is christmas seasons, and there's discounts on every store!
Vicious cycle starts allllllll over again :/
Last month was not fun at all, my account suffering a brutal beating by me.. and i didnt even buy anything other than daily appliances! It was hella scary, seeing my account went down to 2 digit numbers were enough to put me into panic mode.. and i was only well into the first week of the month :S
All i did was spend the remaining money on fruit and cheap canned foods.. and i had to put the rest on credit card, so i could pay that off when i get my paycheck at the end of the month. Some of my coworkers knew what i was going thru.. and were willing to help out by sharing some portion of their lunch with me. Some even offered me for dinner at their houses, but i had to refuse that offer.. i didn't want to be a burden to them and it didnt feel right.
Afterall, it was all my doing that got me into this mess.
Basically, it was because I had to make plans for next year; when i was in vancouver for those 2 weeks.. I made a bank account and deposited 3/4 of my savings in there for safe keep later for school purposes.
What I didn't know was, the money had all been exchanged into canadian dollars, and the economy went to shits right after i came back. CAD went from 7.6 to 6.3.. it was shocking.
If i take out that money right now, I would be losing a huge chunk of money cause of the exchange rate, so fuck that. I went home and was forced to use my remaining savings in the meantime.. my last paycheck went all straight into paying my credit card bills, paying off airfares and the routine bills were one hell of a bitch =/ Also, I knew i had to make more money for the coming month, so i went ahead and Overtimed as much as possible at work.. that helped me made a few extra bucks and prevented me from going out.
Perseverance and many hungry nights later, payday finally arrived. After I made my ATM trip at work, I totally felt like a new man again, having money again in my wallet definitely felt good.
However, I dont know how much money i can save within this upcoming month.. December is christmas seasons, and there's discounts on every store!
Vicious cycle starts allllllll over again :/
2008年11月23日 星期日
sick as hell right now,
really worried about my health..
it hasnt been good since the past year, drinking and smoking has became a routine.. and eating out everyday doesnt help either.
I tried to eat healthy these days, but that leaves my body weak and prone to sickness.. it really sucks, now i have the flu for the hundredth time this year..
really worried about my health..
it hasnt been good since the past year, drinking and smoking has became a routine.. and eating out everyday doesnt help either.
I tried to eat healthy these days, but that leaves my body weak and prone to sickness.. it really sucks, now i have the flu for the hundredth time this year..
2008年11月22日 星期六
Piracy these days
I remember what Kaoru said once about how he remembered being a kid and scrimping to go down to the record store to get a new album. Then he'd get to bring it home, and how awesome of a feeling that was. I remember that too..
The first jrock CD that i ever got was GLAY's heavy gauge, they were the first band that i looked into after seeing their poster at iwase.. Hisashi's blue hair was the first thing that caught my attention XD I still remembered buying that album and listening to it over and over again. But anyways, Kaoru said he thinks it a shame that the younger people now probably won't ever know what that's like, and I really have to agree with him.
Obviously filesharing has gotten me into the whole thing in the first place, but then it was like...you gotta be extremely lucky to find japanese band music, especially indies stuff. It wasn't like how it is now. I still remember the time when i got three GLAY songs and fell completely in love with them. Then I'll just wait on napster/audiogalaxy to search for songs for hours (and wait for another hour to download XD) and still be amazed with every findings.
Nowadays, you can download an album that has been released the same day it's out(or even been leaked one month early) and just forget about it. I've got so many songs on my hard drive i've only listened to once.. sad isnt it? I'm sure there are CDs that I would have loved if I had gotten them differently. Take SID's renai for example, I've only heard of them for no more than three songs, knowing they were gonna release an album, I just knew I had to get it. Now I would still listen to that album over and over, in my car as a whole..I think I appreciated the album more, and listened to it more because I had bought it without knowing what I would find on it.
So realizing this, Back to your roots!
I'd rather go back to world where music was a discovery process that was earned, instead of this crazy buffet where you get soo overloaded that nothing looks good anymore.
The first jrock CD that i ever got was GLAY's heavy gauge, they were the first band that i looked into after seeing their poster at iwase.. Hisashi's blue hair was the first thing that caught my attention XD I still remembered buying that album and listening to it over and over again. But anyways, Kaoru said he thinks it a shame that the younger people now probably won't ever know what that's like, and I really have to agree with him.
Obviously filesharing has gotten me into the whole thing in the first place, but then it was like...you gotta be extremely lucky to find japanese band music, especially indies stuff. It wasn't like how it is now. I still remember the time when i got three GLAY songs and fell completely in love with them. Then I'll just wait on napster/audiogalaxy to search for songs for hours (and wait for another hour to download XD) and still be amazed with every findings.
Nowadays, you can download an album that has been released the same day it's out(or even been leaked one month early) and just forget about it. I've got so many songs on my hard drive i've only listened to once.. sad isnt it? I'm sure there are CDs that I would have loved if I had gotten them differently. Take SID's renai for example, I've only heard of them for no more than three songs, knowing they were gonna release an album, I just knew I had to get it. Now I would still listen to that album over and over, in my car as a whole..I think I appreciated the album more, and listened to it more because I had bought it without knowing what I would find on it.
So realizing this, Back to your roots!
I'd rather go back to world where music was a discovery process that was earned, instead of this crazy buffet where you get soo overloaded that nothing looks good anymore.
2008年11月17日 星期一
memories
:: melody. - haruka.. ::
The last 2 weeks ive been in vancouver before i left, were really the most memorable times ive had.. because of you.
How we met was totally a coincidence, and you managed to keep contact with me, even tho we didnt talk much during our first meet. I didnt know what to think of you initially, but your sweetness and great sense of humor was really admirable.
One thing led to another, we began to see each other more.. i remembered the time we went to see a movie together with maggie and kelvin, even tho the movie sucked.. i had a great time just being with you beside me.
Just as you went to the washroom, maggie asked me if i like you as a girlfriend, i didnt know what to think.... i was really skeptic and confused at that point, someone actually likes me enough to be my girlfriend? All of my past relationships were really one-sided love.. i never had someone to go for me before, and shes a really popular girl that know tons of people, why would she like me? so many questions were rushing into my head. I stayed really quiet for the whole night.
Then the magical day we had.. watching hellraiser and just cuddling with you when u got frightened, the purikuras we took together, watching your face eating a slice of lemon meringue pie.. when i drove you home, you decided to pop the question, and suddenly it became clear to me and knew i had to say yes.
There was that day we went out to richmond, i held ur hands for the very first time and walked around the malls.. i havent felt like this in ages, it made me regret not asking you out sooner.. i truly felt blessed just being with you.
Then the inevitable event came. my worlds turned upside down because of it.
I told you about the news.. and i just couldnt bear myself to leave. you knew i had to take this chance, and instead you wanted me to enjoy the last couple of days together.. I just felt so selfish at that point, to have someone so supportive of me.
In the end i didnt get to spend that much time with you..
Saying goodbyes to you, was so hard.. my heart just broke to a million pieces when i drove to your house. and seeing you crying.. i didnt know how to handle it, i just felt so helpless. i told you to forget about me, i didnt want you to think of me when im over at the other side of the world, it'll be too hard for the both of us.
Just have the sweet memories of us together and let it be a dream.
Now that we've been apart, you and i havent talked to each other. Ive msged you a couple of times, but it seems like our relationships has ended for good. I guess you've moved on, i should do the same but i couldnt seem to forget about you.. or is it because what ive said to you, you really took it to heart, i'll never know for sure.
im sorry.. i couldnt say a lot of things to you, even tho you were there for me.
im sorry... i couldnt do a lot of things i couldve done, even tho you did a lot of things for me.
im sorry.... i didnt show as much compassion as much as you did, even tho you were doing everything for me to show you actually loved me.
im not saying we should get back together, seeing thats impossible now that you live in japan and have a whole new life ahead of you..
i sincerely hope you could find that special someone you love and be happy like the times we were together.
because of you, i felt loved and cared of..
because of you, my life changed for good
i thank you.
The last 2 weeks ive been in vancouver before i left, were really the most memorable times ive had.. because of you.
How we met was totally a coincidence, and you managed to keep contact with me, even tho we didnt talk much during our first meet. I didnt know what to think of you initially, but your sweetness and great sense of humor was really admirable.
One thing led to another, we began to see each other more.. i remembered the time we went to see a movie together with maggie and kelvin, even tho the movie sucked.. i had a great time just being with you beside me.
Just as you went to the washroom, maggie asked me if i like you as a girlfriend, i didnt know what to think.... i was really skeptic and confused at that point, someone actually likes me enough to be my girlfriend? All of my past relationships were really one-sided love.. i never had someone to go for me before, and shes a really popular girl that know tons of people, why would she like me? so many questions were rushing into my head. I stayed really quiet for the whole night.
Then the magical day we had.. watching hellraiser and just cuddling with you when u got frightened, the purikuras we took together, watching your face eating a slice of lemon meringue pie.. when i drove you home, you decided to pop the question, and suddenly it became clear to me and knew i had to say yes.
There was that day we went out to richmond, i held ur hands for the very first time and walked around the malls.. i havent felt like this in ages, it made me regret not asking you out sooner.. i truly felt blessed just being with you.
Then the inevitable event came. my worlds turned upside down because of it.
I told you about the news.. and i just couldnt bear myself to leave. you knew i had to take this chance, and instead you wanted me to enjoy the last couple of days together.. I just felt so selfish at that point, to have someone so supportive of me.
In the end i didnt get to spend that much time with you..
Saying goodbyes to you, was so hard.. my heart just broke to a million pieces when i drove to your house. and seeing you crying.. i didnt know how to handle it, i just felt so helpless. i told you to forget about me, i didnt want you to think of me when im over at the other side of the world, it'll be too hard for the both of us.
Just have the sweet memories of us together and let it be a dream.
Now that we've been apart, you and i havent talked to each other. Ive msged you a couple of times, but it seems like our relationships has ended for good. I guess you've moved on, i should do the same but i couldnt seem to forget about you.. or is it because what ive said to you, you really took it to heart, i'll never know for sure.
im sorry.. i couldnt say a lot of things to you, even tho you were there for me.
im sorry... i couldnt do a lot of things i couldve done, even tho you did a lot of things for me.
im sorry.... i didnt show as much compassion as much as you did, even tho you were doing everything for me to show you actually loved me.
im not saying we should get back together, seeing thats impossible now that you live in japan and have a whole new life ahead of you..
i sincerely hope you could find that special someone you love and be happy like the times we were together.
because of you, i felt loved and cared of..
because of you, my life changed for good
i thank you.
hello
:: Dir en grey - Vinushka ::
after being on a writing hiatus for so long, id thought i pick it up again..
being on LJ just doesnt cut it, too many unwanted people looking at my entries~ i felt like i need to make a new blog to start over new again. so here i am!
reason why i wanted to start writing again is because i simply have a lot of private things to say about my life.. things around me havent been good, it hasnt been good for the past 2 years; my health is slowing getting worst by the min, old memories of the past haunting me, and the unforseenable future ahead of me.
i'll post some more each topic with separate entry~
after being on a writing hiatus for so long, id thought i pick it up again..
being on LJ just doesnt cut it, too many unwanted people looking at my entries~ i felt like i need to make a new blog to start over new again. so here i am!
reason why i wanted to start writing again is because i simply have a lot of private things to say about my life.. things around me havent been good, it hasnt been good for the past 2 years; my health is slowing getting worst by the min, old memories of the past haunting me, and the unforseenable future ahead of me.
i'll post some more each topic with separate entry~
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