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:: the GazettE - the invisible wall ::

Been a long week.. i dont think that SDEB thing can fall thru, mainly because i dont have the work experience here.. i'm still not sure whats going to happen in the next coming week, I'm expecting a call from this guy from apprenticeship to give me a call, so i could start working on random trade stuff.. i guess thats better than nothing?

such shocking news this week, Michael Jackson passed away suddenly.. i felt so sad, cuz i still remember watching his music videos on youtube and loving his dances. he was indeed a legend and he'll be forever missed~

Despite of some sad stuff happening.. I've been in a pretty good mood lately, I found a girl on fb who happened to be right next to me during the giru concert. We got to talking, and wow she & i have a lot in common.. and she seems like a really cute girl! Only problem is shes a bit young, a few frd said to me whats wrong with that, but i feel kinda bad she could be like my little sister.. but anyways, i look forward to talking to her and see how things go =)

dreams

:: 12012 - I DEAL ::

Today marks the last day of career counselling, my counsellor said im pretty much at a dead end with my job search.. seeing with the current recession and places arent ready to hire yet. He suggested that i apply for EI and try to apply for this SDEB grant.

basically this SDEB is funded by the government and they will fully pay for ur tuition for the occupation you wish to go for, also living expenses(backed by the EI).. this almost sounds too good to be true, i had no idea there was such a thing as free learning even when im out of a job o_O.. my counsellor also said with my current situation i have a really high percent of getting in. I still have to talk to my case manager about this..

But this is a good thing; i feel better knowing that i dont have to look for a specific job now, one that i wasnt too happy with. I just gotta figure out what i want to do next now, so its back to the drawing board..

I also decided to make this blog public now.

life's too short, might as well do something you love.

existances

:: GACKT - Oblivious ::

These days had sorta been inspiring, almost forgot my goals and dreams.. its good to know there's still hope and be happy haha. Be true to yourself and love yourself, other people will feel it and love you back~

dad is being a great asshole; theres no reasoning with him, and to think he judged me based on my appearance and saying i have no mechanical skills? thats just insulting.

FML moments every time.

p.s. missing pipu lots, i wonder how shes doing..

lantern

:: Kagrra, - sakura dzukiyo ::

Looking back at my old self, i used to dislike a lot of things i wouldn't dream of doing.. or i was told not to be involved in doing. But now im doing all those things, its not that i have particular love doing the opposite, but its a way i view my life..

I chose to care about friends, value them like my everything.. but in the end what do i get? a phone that doesnt ring unless i make the calls.. no one would call me unless they need a favor done, it really hurts.

I also felt that once i left this place, my prescene is no longer here.. everyone seems to forgot about me, i felt like a ghost lurking around home that is no longer home..

I really lost my faith with humanity, i just want to get away from it all..

Maybe the next step for me would be joining the army, it certainly wouldnt be a bad idea right now.