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:: Kagrra, - sakura dzukiyo ::

Looking back at my old self, i used to dislike a lot of things i wouldn't dream of doing.. or i was told not to be involved in doing. But now im doing all those things, its not that i have particular love doing the opposite, but its a way i view my life..

I chose to care about friends, value them like my everything.. but in the end what do i get? a phone that doesnt ring unless i make the calls.. no one would call me unless they need a favor done, it really hurts.

I also felt that once i left this place, my prescene is no longer here.. everyone seems to forgot about me, i felt like a ghost lurking around home that is no longer home..

I really lost my faith with humanity, i just want to get away from it all..

Maybe the next step for me would be joining the army, it certainly wouldnt be a bad idea right now.