uncomfortable

:: 東方神起 - COLORS~melody and Harmony ::

I got a wake-up yell by this job-search advisor, said everything ive been doing is wrong, and it made me think of a lot of things ive been doing..

staying in my safety zone.

All my life ive never been a risk-taker, even when i was a little kid, i never liked the monkey bars or the playground.. afraid that i might get hurt if i climbed on those things, hence never breaking a bone in my body. Even growing up, I never took much risk into doing much things, probably thats why i never had a girlfriend all these years.. i know the fear of rejection is no big deal, but inside im deathly scared of it.

Thinking of all those things just makes me feel how pathetic i am; even my defense mechanism kicked in saying he's wrong with a lot of things he said, but in reality, i know hes so right about it. I gotta go think outside the box and approach things in different ways..

the road is gonna be super uncomfortable from now on. But really, i have nothing to lose, if anything, id just say ive tried something different and not regret about it.