defeated

Currently Playing: Lynch. - Phoenix

Latest development, she decided to not rent our units. Maybe it's better that way? I feel like she is afraid of her privacy being invaded since i will be working there.. and if things goes sour, she might think i betray her trust, its all just big speculations in my head. Maybe she did want to roommate with someone, REMY isnt exactly cheap for one person..

I feel kinda disappointed, rejected before i even had a chance feelings. She will come back to see me tho, next week when i go give her applications back, normally you aren't allow to take the application back, but in her case, i'll make an exception. another excuse for me to see her again. I am going to ask her out again, i really want this to work out..

Karma

Long weekend last week was great; lots of catching up, lots of laughs & lots of eating!

Friday felt so much like Saturday to me, since i started the day with dark souls 2 with kenneth and we do that every saturday morning, hes got the day off too so might as well! The afternoon was spent with Darek playing moar dark souls 2. Around late afternoon we went to eat at Ask for Luigi along with Kiku and Mike! It was great, i loved all these food gatherings we do. After an early dinner, we decided to go down to downtown and eat some more XD went to Nero's waffles and was having a huge food coma afterwards, thank god we had walked everywhere in downtown so it didn't feel as bad.

Saturday was spent with family with Pho in the afternoon and then Captain America 2 with Darek!
Great movie, great company, what more do you need?

Sunday i went to have lunch with Crystal, its been super long since we've seen each other! Last time it was at that Muse concert(which i did not even stay for, fucking joke) but anyways, it was super great seeing her.. we're not close at all, but whenever we get together, its great catching up with her! However she is moving to Toronto soon to start a new life over there, maybe i will go visit her someday and go to Toronto!

Monday was a pretty mundame day with just me staying at home and taking cat naps here and there, lazy day is much needed after all the food comas i endured XD

So, getting back to the title at hand; Karma, i do believe in it and i try my best to do whatever it is good out there so i can get repaid in my later years.. Karma god, if you are listening can you let me cash it now for a chance to be with a girl i like?

My confidences for her got bonged down pretty hard today.. after calling her and she could not recall my name... =( nor the fact that she is a Libra makes me go URGH come on why.. I know i am super terrible with Libras and how they are super hard to get into a relationship with.. all the pretty untouchables in my life has been all Libras, past experiences has not been great =( Karma God please make her to be different and be approachable for once.

Sigh, i shouldn't stress about it, but paranoia takes over me..

the art of pursue

Currently Playing: NoGoD - あの日の空は極彩で

So this week was interesting;

there was a really down moment where a tenant told me their significant others had passed away. It was heart breaking to see her telling me the news. I always knew someone would be pass away in my building, but i didn't expect it to be so soon. It made me realize how fragile life is, and how one moment you are still in this world, the next moment you are just a vessel without a soul. The husband that passed away always wanted me to have dimsum with them, but i simply just couldn't get away from work.. I do regret not taking up on their offer, and now i can never get the chance with the both of them.. they were a nice couple and its so sad to hear. Condolences to her.

Another thing that happened during this week, this particular girl that applied to one of our studio units.. i felt a really warm presence when I talked to her, and I felt there was a connection with her. I did casually asked her if she was single, and she said yes. At that moment, I felt really nervous for some reason? It was really weird.. I know im breaking a lot of code of work ethics but the thought of me asking her out was constantly in my mind. I ended up not saying it and just waited to complete her application so i can see her next time.

2 days went by and she was still on my mind.. knowing myself im not a very optimistic person, i seriously thought i creeped her out by asking her if she was single, but all of that went away once in the morning i opened my email and she said shes coming back with her application. I thought I still have a chance. Alright Vic you got this, ask her out when she finished handing you her paperwork.

When she came in, we chatted more about work, life stuff, and apparently shes the only child as well, very smart girl with tons of scholarships in universities and working at a place paying her 37 bucks an hour. I felt kinda intimidated at this point, but as we talked more and more, i felt really drawn to her somehow. it was a roller coaster of feelings.

In the end, i did ask her out.

She was flattered, but as i expected she didn't want to start anything. Reasons being she just turned single a month ago. For someone who just got out of a long relationship, i do understand. I do respect her decision.. and at the same time she told me she did feel something as well, but it will take some time.. I am ok with that. She does want to hang out sometime just to know each other a little more, and that she said i was pretty unprofessional for me to ask her out(oh well, if i didnt i never wouldve known).

I hope things work out alright with her. If not, I can honestly say I've tried. I can't wait to tell people about it,omgdidijustfindsomeoneilike XD