the art of pursue

Currently Playing: NoGoD - あの日の空は極彩で

So this week was interesting;

there was a really down moment where a tenant told me their significant others had passed away. It was heart breaking to see her telling me the news. I always knew someone would be pass away in my building, but i didn't expect it to be so soon. It made me realize how fragile life is, and how one moment you are still in this world, the next moment you are just a vessel without a soul. The husband that passed away always wanted me to have dimsum with them, but i simply just couldn't get away from work.. I do regret not taking up on their offer, and now i can never get the chance with the both of them.. they were a nice couple and its so sad to hear. Condolences to her.

Another thing that happened during this week, this particular girl that applied to one of our studio units.. i felt a really warm presence when I talked to her, and I felt there was a connection with her. I did casually asked her if she was single, and she said yes. At that moment, I felt really nervous for some reason? It was really weird.. I know im breaking a lot of code of work ethics but the thought of me asking her out was constantly in my mind. I ended up not saying it and just waited to complete her application so i can see her next time.

2 days went by and she was still on my mind.. knowing myself im not a very optimistic person, i seriously thought i creeped her out by asking her if she was single, but all of that went away once in the morning i opened my email and she said shes coming back with her application. I thought I still have a chance. Alright Vic you got this, ask her out when she finished handing you her paperwork.

When she came in, we chatted more about work, life stuff, and apparently shes the only child as well, very smart girl with tons of scholarships in universities and working at a place paying her 37 bucks an hour. I felt kinda intimidated at this point, but as we talked more and more, i felt really drawn to her somehow. it was a roller coaster of feelings.

In the end, i did ask her out.

She was flattered, but as i expected she didn't want to start anything. Reasons being she just turned single a month ago. For someone who just got out of a long relationship, i do understand. I do respect her decision.. and at the same time she told me she did feel something as well, but it will take some time.. I am ok with that. She does want to hang out sometime just to know each other a little more, and that she said i was pretty unprofessional for me to ask her out(oh well, if i didnt i never wouldve known).

I hope things work out alright with her. If not, I can honestly say I've tried. I can't wait to tell people about it,omgdidijustfindsomeoneilike XD