Recently i saw a fb post from certain person, and it mentioned two person getting her gifts. My mind just wanders.. the feeling of being cheated on after all these times. The whole thing just makes me depressed as hell, I admit i have been unfaithful to her, but it was merely infatuations, i wasn't going to act on it or do anything about it.. maybe the act was already enough.
I feel so stupid & betrayed, just useless with my thoughts, rewinding memories that there were clear signals i did not pick up on and too stupid to realize it until now. SO WHAT. What can be done now? Its been half a year and I still cant get my life together, feels like my foundation is cracking again, ready to tumble any minute.
I didn't tell anyone about how I'm feeling today, only when i'm alone my mind tends to wander, it's horrible. Even tho today i had a great evening with Kelv and Cat, the moment i go into my car, i think about how much of a piece of shit i am.. fucking worst.
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